“Break impossible things into smaller pieces and act like that makes them less insulting.”
He considered. “Has it worked in business?”
“I hate you.”
“Walk thirty steps and then reassess.”
She did. Mostly because she wanted the satisfaction of proving him wrong after thirty. Then she did thirty more. By the time they reached the bench where he’d promised they could stop, the sky was bluer and her anger had transformed into the exhausted ache of effort. Taylor handed her water without comment.
Later, sitting in the car home, sweat drying at the base of her neck, she stared at the windshield and said, “You’re intolerable.”
He started the engine. “You did well.”
Her throat tightened unexpectedly.
The change did not happen in montages. That was the first mercy of it. Real life refused that kind of neatness.
There were good mornings and useless mornings. Days when Maya could feel herself returning to her own body and days when every meal felt like a referendum on worth. Sometimes she wanted sugar so badly she could think of nothing else. Sometimes the scale moved and she felt ashamed of how much hope that inspired. Sometimes it did not move at all and she wanted to smash it with one of Taylor’s decorative candlesticks.
Once, after a miserable cardiology follow-up where numbers had improved but not enough to satisfy the panic she carried, she came home, opened the pantry, and stood staring at a box of crackers like it contained an argument she no longer wished to lose. Taylor found her there.
“I’m tired,” she said before he could speak.
“I know.”
“No, you don’t.” She shut the pantry too hard. “You don’t know what it’s like to have every choice tied to survival. You don’t know what it’s like to feel hungry and ashamed at the same time. You don’t know what it’s like to have a doctor say lifestyle as if your life were a menu you had casually selected.”
Taylor stood still. “You’re right.”
The answer disarmed her.
He stepped closer but not too close. “I don’t know what that feels like. But I know what it feels like to watch someone I care about fight a battle I can’t take over, and I know it makes me useless in a way I’m not built for.” His voice stayed level. “So if you want to be angry, be angry. If you want to eat the crackers, eat the crackers. We’re not turning one rough afternoon into a funeral.”
Maya stared at him. “That’s your pep talk?”
